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Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore
She loves salting my wounds
Yes, she enjoys nothing more.







/ (06) march april may fanmail.


Tuesday, October 11, 2005

I am very tired.

I'm just like a pathetic ass, holding on to a wooden plank in the big sea for safety. I'm holding on to this thin plank, so frail and fragile. My dear life, just hanging so loosely at this piece of wooden plank. I'm going where the sea leads me to - I have no absolute power to control where I should go. But what if it snaps? I have no more energy to swim - I'll just drown and die. Yes, even though I swim.

I just want to die.

One day, yes one day, I'll just leave this world - So much damage it'd done to me, so much hurt and pain it'd caused.. I feel so pathetic. I feel so drained. I feel so dumb. I feel as if, I am dying the very next minute.

I am so tired. So so so tired.

I can't take it anymore.

I'm going to sleep. Whether literal or not, only time will tell..


only almost here,
6:10 AM.